A TERM WHICH STRUCK MY MIND..
People (only a handful); know me as a fun, witty extrovert while few believe I’m shy and awkward. Well, honestly I agree to both the perspectives.
Born in a typical Goan family whose main motto is to talk until their mouths go dry, I grew up keeping the legacy only in my nutshell. Being mischievous in childhood, entertaining my family with my crazy dancing and non stop off tune singing, (my grandmother reminded me of all the songs I sang, until her last breath), I did it all. A crazy young soul who talks her heart out within her comfort zone but will stay shut with just a grin otherwise.
My grandmother always taught, (I miss her too much) it’s rude not responding to people, but believe me it was just nervousness. Therefore I call my self, “A TALKATIVE INTROVERT!!!!”
I didn’t discovered myself until I found discomfort in my former work environment. My colleagues were busy in exploring, socialising and exchanging experiences and the only thought daunting my mind was, “I do not fit in here”. Oh God! Such a misconception – It was just my anxiety. Self realisation – I just need time to settle in.
My family & friends know me as a fierce, stubborn chattering girl but are yet not familiar with my restless side of being distant and reserved. I have my own doubts; Am I right in taking my own time to engage with unfamiliar faces or just be a social butterfly immediately?
My obvious personal choice is in showcasing my real fierce, fun extrovert persona to the world. But you never know, when my demon would come out?
It doesn’t matter if we have flaws, everybody does. Neither who we are – an Extrovert or an Introvert, what all matters is our strength not allowing anyone to overpower us. Let’s just crush the negativity around. Cheers to self love, inner strength and confidence.